Tuesday, September 09, 2003

i'm feeling totally weird. this place is turnin into a complaint forum almost, catered for me, heh. actually i hopes no one ard bother to take a look at my blog anymore, den probably i can say anything i wan. i think no ones here anymore. so lemme tell u abt my weird feelin.

yesterdae jy told me abt something that pulled at my heartstrings, not that its somethin impt or sad , but i just felt.... weird. jy told me he saw jm and an in town yesterdae in a shop. i could almost picture immediately me and jm together in a shop playing ard, but den the image of me changed into an, den suddenly i felt.... weird, haha. weird is jus the word to use. it wasnt jealously, i'm sure, nor was it love. it was like knowing my younger sister going out with someone that i don like or something lidat. so the feeling when u find out that ur sibling is doing something thats not rte. but its not that they being together is not rte or they cant be together, haha, it just that i got this weird feeling. of coz i wish them all the best. theres nth wrong. eh, i guess life does goes on, its 10 sep already, time flies and its another sep holidaes, magic week last year. of coz, if u have to be studying, den u better be, haha. STUDY HARD, dudes and fellas, its a crucial week. i went thru my frens educational cert yesterdae coz i had to collect them, den i realised that i was lucky to have that self motivation and love for maths that made me work hard, not to mention my precious mum supporting me all the way. when u have a mind and heart to do something, things do happen. jiayou, my frens.

last night i called this fren of mine. she was my junior college classmate and she really a good fren of mine. u won believe how nice she was to me and stuff lidat, of coz its the usual story of girl nice to guy and guy didnt think that girl's liking to guy and guy misses her in the end. of coz in the end, the story goes like another guy went after her and in the end she went with him, that kinda story, but of coz, we were good frens in the end. i called her and we chatted till 2 am. damn how many 2ams have i spent talking on the phone. but it was fun catching up, suddenly this WEIRD feeling settled in me that if only two years ago, i had made my move, i would have been talking to my girlfren instaed of my fren. yes, amountin to the earlier weird feelings, i swear i was weird the whole dae, hmmm. talking to her almost made me forget shes my fren, i know i won tell her this coz that guy that shes with is still with her for two years now liao. and hes my fren. i know shes in gd hands with him ard, so i wish them all the best.

me feeling full now, to the brim, i ate duck rice. duck is one of my favourite meat. i love the stall in bedok interchange, its the best i have eaten so far, the duck noodles is fab. hmmm, but i haven eaten them for a long time now already. later going to break with lex and jem, my closest breakin frens. hope i'm going to have fun and improvement of coz. yay! breaking rules.

i'm still thinking of my motorbike, the red and white yamaha tzm, damn, i'll be the happiest man opening her throttle on the pie, but till den, i still haven got my license, not even practical one, there's just no vacanies, its making frustrated, but i do hope there will be a slot for me soon.

k la, i seriously hope there won be anyone here in this website of mine anymore. the tagboard has been quiet for sometime, i guess its the only thing that can tell me that anyone has been here. i take my leave, diary. write on u tml.

bertie =o)


gilbert at 10:53 PM [comment]

{I hear voices, voices only half as humane as mine..}